Wednesday, October 28, 2026

The Adventure of the Double Lady


            It is on the long, dark evenings of winter when I feel most keenly both the loss of my dear wife Mary and nostalgia for the many adventures in which I took part with my friend, Sherlock Holmes. It has become my habit, therefore, to take down one of our old casebooks and pore over the contents, reliving as well as I can, those sometimes sordid adventures and dark mysteries that form the centerpiece of my life and of our work together. 
            One at least of the particular row of books is full of notes and clippings of adventures that I did not publish to The Strand or write as a book, because the individuals involved might have suffered scandal as a result, or, perhaps worse in retrospect, drawn Mr. Sherlock Holmes into unwanted scrutiny.

Holmes resented my retellings of those adventures I had published and often made a point to tell me so. “Too romantic, Watson,” he said. But he also understood that, to a point, it was my narration of the adventures, even to the extent that I changed certain names or details, which brought us the many clients over the years and made his fame—and the remunerative benefits to my friend, regardless of how often he claimed otherwise—that much greater. 

Of course, there were those adventures which, not even with his permission, could I publish, at least until those involved had been in the grave for some time. Now, as I compile what will be my final memoirs of that time in our lives, it is safer for me to at last tell one of the tales that, had it been made public sooner, would have drawn Sherlock Holmes into scandal and even infamy. Worst of all, it might have ruined the public's appreciation for his formidable and unerring intellect for which he had cultivated such a pervasive reputation.

Always the man of action, Holmes never once caused anyone any real or lasting harm, except by bringing them to the Crown’s justice and making them the beneficiary of Her Majesty's gallows. There were physical altercations and events where, had I not been carrying my trusty service revolver, we might have faced considerable injury or death.

"The Napoleon of Crime” had murder in mind for Holmes, when, as I believed then, both Holmes and Moriarty plummeted over the Reichenbach Falls. Such a fall could only have been considered murder, since it had the necessary premeditation to earn that verdict. After I learned that he survived, three years later, my friend never once said that he pushed Moriarty, only that the professor fell while they grappled. Holmes only survived a similar fate by clinging to the cliff face. Any question that Moriarty's intent was to kill Holmes, however, was erased when Moriarty’s men, placed along the shelf of the falls, dropped rocks intending to dislodge him as he scrambled back up the precipice.

It has been argued in the papers and magazines that allowing Moriarty to fall to his death at the falls rises to the level of a justified murder. It is possible that, to the extent that he considered it necessary to rid the world of Moriarty's evil influence, Holmes might agree, but he never once in all our time after that day said so.

The only time that Sherlock Holmes positively acted to save a life by taking one has remained locked away until now and I still feel some trepidation about whether it is safe to bring it to light. All involved are long dead, even that great lady for whose benefit Holmes acted. But I remind myself that Holmes is long out of his former occupation, and to this day, he quietly writes his books and farms bees on the Sussex Downs.

If he has read any of the subsequent adventures I have published in recent years, he has not mentioned it to me in our sparse correspondence.

He will perhaps not mind me adding this dark—maybe the darkest, with exception to the case of the Hound—to my memoirs, which will be the final casebook of our exploits.

The revised version of this story, it must be added here, had several titles that I applied, each somehow less appealing than the last. The one attached here is perhaps the most appropriate, if a little too direct, as it may give away the mystery before the story is told. I have drawn a line through several others, including “The Adventure of Lady Marvis May”, and “The Adventure of the Changed Lady”. “His Only Bullet” would have worked as well, though, as I have stated above, it may have drawn Sherlock Holmes into a festering swamp far deeper than the one he stepped into in the great Grimpen Mire, to retrieve Sir Henry Baskerville’s stolen black boot. What follows is the final draft of that story.


-JHW, London 1927


It was the autumn of 1906. Fog lay heavy over London, and my friend, Sherlock Holmes was in his chair by the fire, smoking his clay pipe, his knees drawn up under his chin, his eyes far away and unfocused. In our long association, I had learned his many idiosyncrasies and postures, from his deep and incurable need for puzzles, mysteries, and problems to solve, to the yawning gulfs of depression in between cases that thrust my friend into a black reaction. In those moments, Holmes grew languorous, unmoored from his strict fastidiousness, usually to be found lying on the settee, barely conscious. At those times, much against my medical advice, he would retrieve from his locked desk drawer the small black leather case with the syringe and the solution of cocaine or morphia, which I think he believed eased the burden of his great mind yearning for work. 

As I have had occasion to state previously, when a problem lay before Sherlock Holmes, he was as keen as a taut wire, his mind focused on every detail. The posture of the man before me illustrated the disturbing beginnings of indolence and boredom, but not yet that of the drug. It was the posture of the Sherlock Holmes, the consulting detective, uncoiling just after applying the methods he developed over years of solving the most troubling and baffling mysteries that I have set before the public.

We were fresh from the Billingsly-Drummond case, where Holmes had saved an ancient family heirloom from the grasp of the greedy criminal known as George Nebbin bent on stealing it for the legendary gold bars supposedly hidden within. For the first time in many months, no case lay before him. I knew that if my friend did not have another case soon, he would lapse back into the arms of his soporific drug use, but there was time and the season of the year proved a very excellent soil for the seed of crime to spring up, only to be plucked by the assiduous hand of Sherlock Holmes.

 “Pray sit by the fire” said Holmes as I entered our rooms at 221 B, Baker Street. “There is fresh coffee in the pot. Add a little brandy to warm you, Doctor. We wouldn’t want you to catch cold.” 

 Holmes turned and placed his fingertips together, elbows on the arms of the chair, his clear eyes gazing at me with a stern and searching expression that I had seen countless times before. 

“I perceive that you have been out in the rain without your umbrella, Watson. Who won the debate?”

“But, how...?” I stammered, astonished. “My dear Holmes,” I cried, “How could you know that? My coat is dry!”

“I perceive you had a considerable soaking,” he said.

“But, it hasn’t rained for hours, Holmes,” I said. “I’ve dried off long before now. How could you surmise such a thing, after the fact?”

“Observation, Watson. I never guess or surmise.”

“I still do not see—,” I began.

“It is simplicity itself, my good doctor. I perceive your coat and hat, which you have hung by the fireplace, are damp at the edges. A man who has been standing in the rain, naturally would still be wet when he arrives home even after many hours. A man who has been in the rain, but has dried, will fail to notice that the hem of his coat and the edge of his hat remain damp, for here the stitched fabric is thickest and takes the longest to dry.”

“But the debate,” said I.

“Why, Watson, why else would a man of your resource brave foul weather if not to stand amidst the mob for a political debate?”

“Well, yes, but ...”

 “Yesterday, after reading a long article in the Times, you remarked that you had Featherby down for a rogue and a knave for his opinions against the landed gentry, but that you liked Linkhouse no better. You will recall that I made no profession of my own opinion, save to quote Pericles on the matter. 

“The Times, which you left lying in an untidy pile upon the seat of your chair, showed a headline with a debate held today rain or shine at Speakers’ Corner in Hyde Park. Naturally, you braved the weather and the crowds and were no doubt roped into rousing civil discourse by our many neighbors, and thus you went off to your club to continue the debate on your own terms, before returning here. Thus, you were standing in the rain at the debate without your umbrella, but you dried somewhat at your club.”

“Holmes, you amaze me!”

“My dear Watson! It is the simplest matter of assembling the data into a chain of causes. The sun was shining when you departed this morning, and your umbrella has been here at Baker Street all day in the stand by the door.”

“I confess I have behaved rather clumsily.”

“Nonsense, Watson. We have not yet developed that science for forecasting what the weather will do. Any honest Englishman will bring his umbrella with him when the autumn weather shows its caprice, but it is hardly more than a venial sin to leave it in the stand when the sun shines in the morning.

“There! How have I done?”

“Right at every turn, Holmes! Indeed, I was standing in the rain to see the debate at Hyde Park. I did not go to my club, but to a public house to have a pint of bitters with a few of the gentlemen from the debate. Perhaps I did overstay and dried somewhat there.”

“Not at your club, eh? That’s bad! You see, Watson, how dangerous it is to make any assumption based upon previous behavior.”

I had no sooner taken my seat and poured a cup of coffee, when we heard the rattle of footsteps coming up the stairs. Mrs. Hudson ushered a large, red-faced woman into our room; to consult with Holmes. I stood to leave, but he stopped me. 

“Stay, I beg you, Watson,” said he. “No doubt you will find our visitor of some interest. Come in, Madam!”

The woman’s clothes were neat, if threadbare, but her countenance had such hard features and bearing that I was sure she had seen many years of service, perhaps as a cook. Holmes leapt up with agile steps and ushered our visitor to the basket chair by the fireplace. In a flash, he was back in his chair, his eyes alight with keen interest, though his features otherwise betrayed no clue of his excitement.

Holmes said, “This is my friend, Doctor Watson, pray have no fear to say anything in his presence which you would relay to me. You may, as I have done for many years, trust him implicitly. How may we aid you?” 

“Mr. Holmes, sir,” she said. “My name is Elizabeth Davies. I am the cook for Lady Charlotte Maye at Willow Downs, near Surrey. Oh, she’s a wonderful lady, she is, Mr. Holmes. A more just, kind and beautiful woman could not draw breath in all of England, sir.”

“Her worth is commended in your compliments, Madam. Pray continue.” My friend said this with all the solicitousness of a chivalric knight. For a man of such mighty intelligence and hard, inscrutable ways, Holmes was always the keenest gentlemen when speaking with women.

“Her husband was killed in the last Afghan war, Mr. Holmes, and she keeps the house all by herself, sir, with only me and the governess, Mrs. Billings, to help with her children.”

The woman took a kerchief from her sleeve and dabbed at her red eyes.

“It’s been hard, Mr. Holmes. Her husband was a brave man, but he was not very wealthy despite the family rank and title. There have been hard months, but the lady is smart and fierce, and she made things work, though we were often on short commons, I made certain the children ate. 

“Myself and the governess, Mr. Holmes, we took it upon ourselves to have a meeting with the lady and get her to seek help from her father in Yorkshire, but the old man never approved of the marriage, and the lady was too proud by half to seek his help. Oh, he is an odious man, if you’ll forgive me for saying it, sir. And the lady felt it very keenly that she could not turn to her own family for help.”

“And what of her husband's father,” Holmes asked, “Could she not seek aid from him?”

“The lady’s father-in-law, Sir Michael Maye, is a cruel, hard man, sir. He sent a messenger more than once to the door to tell the lady that he would stop all her late husband’s monies, if she did not quit the house and take her children away. We tried to convince her to stay on, that it was only bluster, but she had made up her mind finally to go and ask help from her people in Yorkshire. They have a great country house, Mr. Holmes, and her uncle is a good man, though under the sway of her father. She made plans to travel north, but Sir Michael caught wind of it, and then catastrophe struck the house at Willow Downs, Mr. Holmes.”

Again, the woman paused to blot tears from her red eyes. 

“It is just too terrible. The only grace is that the children are all away at school now, and so are not home to see the terrible change that has taken our dear lady from us. 

“When I am not preparing meals, Mr. Holmes, I help with cleaning and a few odd tasks around the house. It was a fortnight ago, now, sir, when Lady Maye made up her mind to ask her lord uncle for help. She made arrangements with the neighbor’s groom to send her in a trap to Waterloo Station and then on to Yorkshire. The night before, I heard a terrible sound, sir, and I went down to see if what I thought was true, Mr. Holmes.”

“What did you think madam?” Holmes asked.

“Why sir, that Sir Michael had sent ruffians to force her out in the middle of the night, sir. We had no doubt that something was coming of that sort. But whatever it was, this was far worse.”

“Pray continue, Mrs. Davies.”

“When I got to the lady’s room, sir, I saw such a sight that I thought never to see in my whole life. The lady, sir, was unconscious and laying in her nightclothes upon a chaise and the French doors of her room were open. It was a ruffianly evening, sir, and I rushed to close the doors for fear that she would take ill. When I turned around, the lady was standing. It was her face, sir, and her voice, but the words that came out of her dear lips, Mr. Holmes. I nearly fainted when I heard her speak, and my father was a sailor sir and knew a word or two when his steam was up.”

“What did she say, Mrs. Davies?”

“I couldn’t repeat it here, sir, except to say that she had a total change of heart, Mr. Holmes. She swore that she would sell the house and the children could chance their lot on the streets and she took me to task for keeping her there for the sake of my own employment, Mr. Holmes. I was so taken aback, that I packed my things that very night, to go. It was only Mrs. Billings the governess that spoke a word in season, sir, and kept me from flying into the night with nary a plan for my future. 

“She calmed me down, sir, and set me to come to you to ask for help. The days between have been a terrible fight, sir. Lady Maye is a fine woman, and sure I am that she’s suffered some fit under the strain of the events. Twice I tried to speak to her, when she was seeming more peaceable, but in both cases, though she never swore oaths at me again, like that horrible night, sir, she wouldn’t hear any reason to stay. 

“Strangest of all, Mr. Holmes, she met with Sir Michael. In fact, sir, she was in conference with him for several hours, and now the house is going back to him and we’re out of a job and the children will lose a home.

“I cannot help but think that if she had just sent word to her uncle, that he might have helped, but she refused to hear of it and then, after the change, she behaved as if she had no notion of what I was saying.”

“Think very carefully, Mrs. Davies,” said Holmes, “was there anything else of note that occurred on the night you found Lady Charlotte so changed?”

“No, Mr. Holmes,” she said, and then there was a most remarkable change in her features. “Now that you mention it, sir, something strange did happen that night, begging your pardon, but the events of that evening put it from my mind.

“It is my habit of an evening to walk the circumference of the wall that surrounds the grounds of the house. The lady and her gardener have overseen the planting of many flowers of rare beauty, and if the weather is fine, I like to walk and admire them. Some evenings, I will bring sandwiches to Mr. Harvey, the gardener, who sees that the gas lamps are lit when he leaves at night, sir.

“I was out walking, Mr. Holmes, the very evening of the night when the lady seemed so changed. I had a basket of sandwiches to bring to Mr. Harvey and I planned to take the long way around the house before turning in. 

“To my astonishment, Mr. Holmes, I found that Mr. Harvey wasn't by the front gate, and the gas torches were not turned on and the gate was open. The stables can be seen from the gate and I turned to see if the lights were lit. The stables were dark. I closed the gate and noticed that the gravel had been kicked up so that the gate on one side didn't like to go shut. I had to set the sandwiches down and push with all my might, Mr. Holmes.”

“Did you succeed?”

“Yes, sir. After a bit, I was able to push it to, but I didn't know how to turn on the lamps. I took the sandwiches back to the house, but then I found the lady so changed, I forgot all about the lamps and the gate.”

“Thank you Mrs. Davies. You were quite right to come to me with this problem. Tomorrow, Doctor Watson and I shall come to Willow Downs to see Lady Charlotte Maye and see what we may do to assist her, and by extension, yourself and the governess.”

“Thank you Mr. Holmes, and may God bless you if you can do anything to save her for herself and her children, sir.”


When he had ushered the stout cook out, Homes came back with the light of energy in his eyes. “Watson, we rarely have seen a criminal of so excellent a mind as this Sir Michael Maye.” 

“No doubt he would stoop to doing rough work to get a house, but you suspect murder?”

“I have no clues, Watson. We shall see what we can see tomorrow, first thing. Come!” he said, “Let us ring for dinner from Mrs. Hudson and you can tell me of the debates.”

I knew Holmes well enough to know that he had little interest in politics, and he paid hardly any attention to my description of events, save for a cursory nod. After the plates were cleared away, Holmes adopted his usual position in his chair and lit his pipe. I retired sometime later and except to refill his pipe, he had not moved.


Early the next morning, I awoke to find Holmes leaning to wake me. “Come, Watson!” I shaved and dressed as rapidly as I could. 

I found Holmes swathed in a long coat, his hat pulled low and a loaded riding crop in his hand. “Watson, have you your service revolver?”

“Why, yes,” said I.

“Good! Pray keep it at the ready. We have rarely faced so deadly a nemesis."


Holmes hired a hansom and soon we were on our way to Willow Downs, the home of Lady Charlotte Marvis-Maye. The foggy morning air seemed to break once we were out of the confines of the city. Holmes was pensive, coiled and alert. His restless eyes roved the countryside.

Soon, we swept down a winding road with large homes on both sides, many of them surrounded by well-manicured grounds. The house at Willow Downs was large, but, as Mrs. Davies had said, not a true country house. It sat back  from the road and was surrounded by a high wall. Holmes paid the driver and told him to wait for us. A great black iron gate in the wall swung open when Holmes pushed on it. In the early morning gloom, not much could be seen, but Holmes went about, stooping and lighting a small pocket lantern, and then wandered inside the gate and pushed it only to see that where the lock would have been, a large hole exposed the inner workings, as though it had been stuffed it with explosives or acid.

There were gas torch lamps in the piers on either side of the gate, but they were not lit and we couldn’t find the valve. “You see the gate lock has been destroyed, Watson, preventing it from being closed.”

“It has iron workings, how could someone have done this without an explosion?”

Holmes bent and took out his lens and inspected the rectangular box mounted by welds onto the bars of the gate.

“He filled the lock mechanism with phosphorus. The odor is quite strong close up.

Holmes proceeded to look at the base of each gate pier, moving the mould with the toe of his boot. “Hello!” he cried, bending and producing a small white piece of heavy paper partially burned.

“The evidence begins to produce a chain, Watson. To gain entrance, he poured the phosphorus into the keyway and lit it using this piece of paper. It burned quite hot, and he moved here to be away from the light of it. In his haste to enter, he dropped the paper and left us an important clue.

“But who could have done such a thing? Surely not the gardener,” I said.

“Let us see if we can meet the fellow. It is likely that his greatest crime was accepting a sovereign to depart early and leave the gas torches off, thereby giving cover to the one who did this.”

We went through the destroyed gate and together walked toward a building to the left of the main house used as stables. Along the way, Holmes went to the sides of the gravel drive and at two points, he cast himself upon the ground, searching with his keen eyes along the border. 

At first, there appeared to be no one in the building, but at length, we found a man stretched out on a chair by a small coal fire burning low in a grate. He was not elderly, but he had the weight of some years around his ears and in the lines of his face. He was evidently quite deaf, as it took us both shouting to draw his attention. At last, we managed to alert him to our presence, and with much shouting and gesticulating, managed to convey to the man that we were not burglars.

“Oh, you must be Mr. Holmes! Mrs. Davies told me to expect you!”

Holmes questioned the man closely, but he had no idea of who might have destroyed the gate, nor turned off the gas in the torches on the gate piers. We left by the way we came, and this time followed a swath of mown grass toward the house.

“Our adversary is very clever indeed, Watson. He seems to have anticipated any challenges to his game at every turn. Very well, let us introduce ourselves to Lady Charlotte and see what it is that we may discover.”


We were admitted into the house by the governess, Mrs. Billings, who had been expecting us. She went to wake the lady, who had retired. “She gets most awfully tired by mid-morning, Mr. Holmes,” said the governess. We were shown into a small sitting room, bright with late morning light and soon, Lady Charlotte joined us. 

She was a woman of great beauty, or she had been. The trials since the death of her husband had put a shadow of illness upon her features. Her high, proud forehead was creased with worry and strong lines edged the corners of her mouth. It was certain that she was a woman of noble birth, but there was a sharpness both to her eyes and a certain sallow color of her skin that spoke to hard living, extremely unusual except to those long accustomed to the rigors of poverty. More than any of this, however, it was the bright light of madness in her eyes that spoke to a deep weariness of her mortal frame. 

Her expression was haughty, as she sat, hands clasped firmly on her lap. 

“It is no doubt that my servants have taken it upon themselves to seek your aid, Mr. Holmes,” she said sharply. “I did not ask them for their help, nor do I require yours, sir.”

“Madam,” said Holmes, attempting to placate the woman, “We merely wish to spend a few moments looking at the house. You have some pictures here that are of interest to my friend. We were informed by Mrs. Davies of your plight and yet we knew that there was nothing we could do to stop the inevitable.”

Indeed this did seem to ease the tension in the woman’s posture. “You may take your tour of the house, then,” she said, and rising, she left the room. As she did so, she made a strange, deep cackle and I saw Holmes start and then instantly resume his composure.

“Come Watson,” He whispered, “We cannot lose a minute of time!” He leapt to his feet and feigned sounds of admiration for the many paintings along the main floor corridors, he leaned into rooms and scanned and made notes in a small notebook.

When the lady had vanished into the back part of the house, no doubt to remonstrate, or even fire poor Mrs. Davies from service, he instructed me in a hoarse whisper to remain in the corridor and he sprang up the stairs into the gallery. A few moments later, he returned and grabbed my arm, he ushered me to the front door. “Thank you, Lady Charlotte, for your hospitality! No doubt, this will make a fine residence for a deserving family!” So saying, we departed and returned to Baker Street.


I could get nothing from Holmes on the return trip, but upon arrival at Baker street, he stepped into the post office and filled out a telegraph form. Within the hour, the smart, youthful countenance of Stanley Hopkins of Scotland Yard stood before us.

“I came as soon as I got your telegraph, Mr. Holmes,” said the police detective, eager as always to aid the man he so obviously regarded as a mentor.

“Ah, Hopkins. Take this paper and go as quickly as you can to the address written here. Show it to no one. You will need to bring a few other sturdy men to aid you.”

“What’s it all about, Mr. Holmes?”

“All shall be revealed in due time, Hopkins. I must impress upon you: show that address to no one! Return here as quickly as you are able. Mrs. Hudson will be expecting you.

Hopkins left and Homes went to see Mrs. Hudson. 

When he came back, he sat down and steepled his fingers together under his chin. Outwardly he appeared calm, but I knew that he was vibrating with nervous excitement.

“What is it, Holmes,” I asked him. 

“Truly Watson, we have rarely encountered so devious a mastermind as Sir Michael Maye.”

“But what has he done, other than try to take the home from Lady Charlotte,” I asked.

“You will see, soon enough, Watson. In the meantime, we must be ready in a moment to return to Willow Downs. Keep your service revolver to hand, Watson!”

Within the hour, Stanley Hopkins returned and Holmes went out with him. Soon enough, he returned and, hiring a trap, we were off to Willow Downs again.


The long shadows of evening were beginning to fall and long strands of mist gathered under the trees as we made our way. Holmes kept close the entire journey and yet I confess that I had the sensation that we were traveling into a darker adventure unlike any we had ever faced together before. 

As we neared the house, Holmes grabbed my arm and we leapt down and, hiding the trap in some trees by the wayside and tying the horse so it couldn’t be seen from the road, we made our way quietly to the broken gate. Soft and silent as shadows, we huddled against the inner wall and slipped around behind the house. Even as we crossed the back garden, we could see a fine carriage, led by two white and noble horses, approach the gate. Holmes knocked quietly on the kitchen door and there, we were met by Mrs. Billings, the governess, and let into the back part of the house.

With the help of Mrs. Billings, we stationed ourselves in the gloom beneath the great stairs, but with a clear view of the front doors. Even as we settled, the front doors opened and in strode a man of sixty with white hair and mustaches. He was a very robust man, tall and barrel-chested. His face was stern and fierce.

“Margot,” he said, in a deep voice that echoed off of every surface of the house, “come out!” A woman’s voice echoed from high above us. It was sharp and cruel, the voice of Lady Charlotte.

“Your fool plan has failed,” she said as she came down the stairs. “The cook told that meddling detective.” There was another cawing laugh. She said, "Where is my sister?”

“I have dealt with your sister and I will deal with the detective,” said Sir Michael. “There is only one last thing”. He produced a thick sheaf of papers and placed them on a table in the middle of the corridor. He pulled a tray with a pen to the edge of the table and gestured to the woman. We could see her from behind as she moved toward him.

Holmes whispered in my ear, “We have to time everything perfectly Watson. Too soon and we risk all our plans. Too late, and the lady’s life may be lost! Keep your revolver at the ready.”

The lady approached the table, but even as she did so, the doors were thrust open behind them and in stepped Stanley Hopkins followed by a pale lady, propped up by a plainclothes officer. She had dark circles under her eyes and she could barely walk and yet, by some supreme effort, she moved into the home that was by right, her own.

It was Lady Charlotte, her clothes were torn and her hair was askew, but it was she. 

“Now!,” cried Holmes, and we rushed from the shadows into the light.

Sir Michael, seeing the folly of his ruse, pulled from the pocket of his greatcoat a dueling pistol. He aimed it directly at Lady Charlotte. Even as he moved, Holmes seized me by the arm and took my service revolver from my hand. The report of the weapon echoed like thunder in the house. For a moment of horror, I thought we were too late. 

But then Sir Michael clutched at his chest and then fell dead to the floor. His own pistol had fired at the same time, but by great fortune, he was struck off his aim and the lead ball missed the lady and the officer she clung to, and struck the great door just to her left.

Lady Charlotte swooned and Stanley Hopkins and his men crowded around her. The air was shattered by horrible laughter. There, by the table, the other woman clutched at her own face and shrieked, her eyes turned up and she fell to the floor in a dead faint.

Holmes let the pistol fall from his hand into mine and thrusting the same hand out, he cried, “Your flask, Doctor. Quickly!” I knelt and, thrusting the flask between the handsome lips of the real Lady Charlotte, poured brandy into her mouth. She soon revived and we helped her to a chair. Mrs. Billings and Mrs Davies came out of the back of the house, their faces white and etched with the horror of the scene, but they tended to their beloved lady. We soon revived the counterfeit lady and Stanley Hopkins ordered that she be brought to Scotland Yard.

“There was nothing for it, Mr. Holmes,” Hopkins said, gently. “You acted faster than any of us and the man meant this lady harm. I will testify to that before a judge on your behalf.”


Winter winds howled around the corners of Baker Street and Holmes was settled in his chair, staring into the fire. I was pasting newspaper clippings into my casebook, when I came across a letter posted from Willow Downs. It was unopened.

“How long have you had this?” I asked and handed the letter to him. “Ah!’ he said and was silent for several moments, before handing it back to me. “You may read it if you wish, Watson.” 

“No doubt it is from the Lady Charlotte, wishing to thank you,” I said.

“No doubt you are right,” he said. “It is the strangest thing, Watson, but I do not wish to accept thanks for the deed.”

“It was the right thing to do, Holmes,” I said.

“Perhaps, Watson, but the goal of any true detective must be to prevent crime. I consider it a failure of great proportions that we could not manage things so that Sir Michael would get the justice he deserved.”

“You have never told me what his part was in all this, except to steal Willow Downs.”

“Oh, he was a deeply dangerous mind, Watson, on a level with Professor Moriarty, or Jack Stapleton. No! Make no mistake, here was a man capable of the most evil cruelty if it brought him what he desired.”

“Then he intended murder?”

“As a last resort, yes,” said Holmes. “I believe at some level it pleased him to think that he was ruining the life of a woman who had no husband to protect her. His desire for the house is where that nefarious idea first occurred to him. I have done some research into Sir Michael and discovered that he had a reputation for cruelty.”

“What idea?”

“Why, to switch out the lady for her sister,” Holmes said.

“Her sister? I’m astounded!”

“Very often Watson, it is the simplest explanation that is the most logical. Think back to the evening when Mrs. Davies sat before us.”

“I remember it well,” said I.

“Then you will recall that she said that hearing a disturbance in the house, she went to see if Lady Charlotte was well, and found her by an open window, in only her nightgown.”

“Why, yes.”

“What was the sequel?”

“That the lady had changed in her behavior.”

“Excellent, Watson. It was these two clues that first suggested to me the real crime. Mrs. Davies said that Lady Charlotte’s father was ill-disposed to her, but that she had a kindly uncle. I took the liberty of contacting this uncle with the help of a man I know in Yorkshire. It was merely an idea, but there seemed to be little else to explain it.”

“You mean a twin?”

“Precisely, Watson. Somehow, Sir Michael discovered that Lady Charlotte had a sister in Yorkshire who was her exact copy in every way. However, this sister had run afoul of some blaggards and was discovered to be addicted to laudanum. Over the years, she had begun to lose her sanity and the family were obliged to keep her locked away. Sir Michael had heard of this, certainly, when first his son spoke of the young lady and had his spies investigate the family. This is when the seed of an idea first came to him, Watson. 

“Then, his son was killed in Afghanistan. He had long desired the house, which was in the lady’s uncle’s gift. He formulated a plan to take the house from her by threat, but when she did not resist, he set to work on a more complicated plan. He sent an emissary to Yorkshire and sprung the lady from her confinement. Over several months, he paid to have her fed and groomed and dressed like her sister. He made it plain to her that the more believable her performance, the more likely she would be to win the home for herself.”

“You don’t mean she believed he was working on her behalf,” I asked.

“Sir Michael, like so many men of criminal intent, was not above lying to gain his desires, Watson. That he intended to kill the sister is clear by his possession of the dueling pistols. Once he had the papers in his possession and thus the house, he intended to stage the affair so that it appeared that Lady Charlotte took her own life.”

“But what of the gate, and the gas torches?”

“That was an obstacle that Sir Michael used to his advantage. He paid the gardener to leave the torches unlit, and no doubt gave a compelling reason. The gardener, being deaf, and having seen Sir Michael regularly over the previous weeks, assumed that the man had some authority and obeyed the command. That left the gate, which was regularly closed and locked at night. Sir Michael used the darkness to pack the lock with phosphorus to melt the internal locking mechanisms and thereby, sneak the Lady’s sister onto the grounds and kidnap the real Lady Charlotte.”

“That leaves how you found out where she was being held,” I said.

“That was less easy, Watson. It seemed too obvious to hide the lady close by. Too many people knew her and Sir Michael could not risk her to be seen by anyone who might otherwise know where she was supposed to be. That showed his calculating mind. But as so often happens with the criminal mind, as the desired object is approached, excitement clouds the rational faculties. 

“I believe that he intended to complete the switch by taking the Lady Charlotte to Yorkshire and placing her in confinement where her sister had been, but he never got that far. You will recall, Watson, that I sent an address with Stanley Hopkins and instructed him that no one else must see it. The lad is an admirable police detective, so rare among his professional brethren. I sent him to Sir Michael’s room in the city. He has, by slow degrees, lost much of his fortune through poor investments and gambling and has but one manservant to tend to his needs.”

“That explains his desire for the house,” I said.

“Precisely, Watson. A man in such straits might try a desperate throw.”

“Did his manservant not suspect and try to alert him?”

“There, Watson, I must again give credit to young Hopkins. He lured the man out by false pretense and his men restrained him until they could safely remove the lady. And then the deed was done.”

He sat quietly again and a shadow crossed his face.

“I can only regret that it came to this Watson. So many times, we have faced deadly and desperate men, and yet our wits were enough; wits and action. Alas, that I was overtaken by desperation to save a life, Watson and had to take one in return.”

And then, like has happened so often, Sherlock Holmes closed off his great and inscrutable mind to the case just passed and bent those sharp rational faculties to the next puzzle.


The End


Wednesday, October 21, 2026

Earth Circle

‘The Twin Pinnacles, or “Twin Pins” as residents have affectionately called them for years beyond count, rise from the center of town to a height of just under 800 feet. They are the remnants of a massive shard of metamorphic gneiss that was thrust up over 150 million years ago, when the local landscape was characterized by shallow seas and volcanic islands. The shard cooled and, unmarked by any human observer, cracked into twin towers, and became what we see today in the background of almost any picture taken downtown. 

From above, approaching pilots have remarked about how disorienting the towers appear, jutting, almost at random from the earth’s surface. I have seen it from this vantage, and I agree; it looks as though some ancient chthonic deity thrust up two fingers through the aperture of the volcanic crater to symbolize its desire for peace with the surface world. The structures are not just historic markers of the North Carolina Piedmont’s incredible geological history, they are part of the town heritage and represent her lineage to prehistoric times. 

Infamous town founder, John Hanton Talbot, wrote in his journals that the rock towers were “an unmistakable sign” for him to settle here, concluding long years of wandering without a destination. 

Early residents often climbed the Twin Pins, sometimes to their own peril. At least since 1986, there has been an ordinance preventing anyone from attempting to scale the rocks for any reason after the death of a Hantonville High School student who plummeted to his demise the night before graduation in June of 1985.’

-Excerpt from the introduction to “Hantonville: A History” by Max Ruiz





Canopy. 

        It was the only word that popped into his mind at that moment. He wasn’t aware of why the word hung there like that, just floating in his brain. The roar and flame of the world receded, he was suddenly floating in darkness. He could not feel his hands or feet or body. He was merely consciousness in a void. The only light in that darkness was radiating in purple and pink pulses from the word. Over and over it roared. Canopy.


It has to be the greatest experience, John Kevin Eddington reflected, to be able to fly like a bird. He was standing on the precipice of rock, high above the town. He could see literally every undulation of the county below him. Late summer’s haze hung in heavy curtains upon a black-green landscape. The town lay nestled below him, coiling in tree-lined streets toward the center above which he stood. Above him, in the pale azure sky, fading from blue at the horizon to searing silver-white overhead, great birds—maybe they were turkey vultures, he thought—soared in widening circles, careless, graceful, free. He longed to break the tendrils of gravity’s power that held him fast to the surface. He wanted to feel the sun on his back, the wind in his hair, he wanted to gaze below him and feel that what he saw all belonged to him.

He yearned to leave the earth, to move through the firmament, to be unfettered by the world. He could feel himself slipping through the air, his arms stretched, his fingers touching the sky on either side. A thought more real than anything he had ever experienced said to him in the speech of his own mind that he could just leap into the air and it would buoy him up. He felt himself—something ancient and deep within him—throw off all he knew about the rules of reality and sweep out into nothingness.


Canopy. The word flashed and as it did a buzzing, singing sound filled where his mind had been. A whoosh of light and noise as the blackness halved and peeled back. He could see mountains and sky speeding past and then darkness again. Canopy. 


Below, there was a bowl filled with grass, where these great rock pinnacles had pierced the earth some hundred and fifty million years ago, like a great stone spear that split with the feverish pressures. The volcano that had raged here was now dormant, but these two great rock towers remained, split down the center, broken but still looming high over the town. For many years, the high school graduating class had climbed the steep staples hammered into the Twin Pinnacles and painted their graduation year on a large sheet or tarp and fastened it across the top. They did this each year until a young man plummeted out into the vast nothingness and crashed down into the shallow, grass-filled crater bowl below. After his death, city workers cut the steel hoops off of the rock to prevent people from climbing the Pinnacles. John Kevin Eddington knew by heart the placard placed at the bottom. “No Climbing. By Decree of the City of Hantonville, climbing either of the stone towers is subject to 30 days in jail and a $5,000 fine, by City Ordinance 1262 § 2.34 (1986).”

He had climbed the pinnacle even so. Using a selection of tools that he bought online, John had begun climbing at just past midnight and slowly, carefully climbed the 783 feet necessary to reach the top of the western tower. He’d watched the sun come up, seen light spread like honey through the streets, and became intimately familiar with which neighborhoods stayed in the shadows longer than the rest. He watched each street light pepper out, and the avenues and boulevards fade from orange-gold streams to gleaming black in the dew-laden air of first light. The Hill Avenue Heights arced like a wooded ridge on the north side of town, the huge houses and mansions gleaming in their post-colonial colors. He could even see with the binoculars he’d brought tiny vehicles resting in driveways, windows popped to light and toy-like humans started their day.

Talbot County Hospital, stretched like a great red brick monstrosity to hug the helicopter pad between its millionaire-donated wings; Hector’s Tacqueria, Rick’s Diner, the Rodeo Barrel, Tommy’s Taphouse, the Quick-Thru Exxon, three McDonald’s and two other fast food places lay snuggled along highway 54 on the business end of town, and were all there for him to see from his vantage point. He could even see a shadow on the knees of Jericho Mountain, and far away, at the edge of his sight, gleaming glass and chrome, Talbot County Community College, huddled within leafy grounds.


Canopy. Again the world cracked open. Black halves of darkness rolled away from bright light and seething background noise. Canopy. The word flashed and shrieked in his head. 

His head. Where was his head? He was laying down, looking at the world flying past him through... through what? Through...


The urge to fly had been growing in his mind for months. Georgie was gone and he was lying collapsed in the grass in the field behind his apartment complex, staring up into the winter white sky. A pair of crows winged past over him and his heart lurched upward against the inside of his chest, pulling at the power that held him fast to the ground. He felt then as if the ground he was lying on was actually the sky and the open air widened below him. He had only to break the hold of the magic that pulled him fast to the ground and he would plunge out into nothingness. The rest of the world would see him rising into the sky but to his perspective he would be falling out into the darkness beyond. He felt himself weeping, the loss, the pain, the emptiness in him, and he felt the tears slide across his cheeks and watched as they dripped from his woe-filled face into the sky.


Canopy. He reached, fighting the god-like strength holding him fast and pulled the lever between his legs and the canopy of the jet blew free and he was launched out into the sky like a bullet. The jet swept away to his left, growing smaller and smaller, trailing black smoke. He reached the apex of his arc and felt weightlessness take him for just a moment and then his innards rose as the earth pulled him back. The chutes blasted open in resistance to that pull, though and he swung lazily toward the brown world below.


John felt as if all he had to do was rise to his tip-toes and he would melt free of the bounds of the world and float away. It was all he wanted. Whether he flew or floated or fell, he would be out there with Georgie, their hands clasping, their bodies coming together in the weightlessness of the air. Georgie, her hair flowing behind her like a copper waterfall, her tawny eyes shining like fire in the morning light. The familiar ache inside him rose and pushed against his ribcage, like a black balloon of melancholy, pushing him upward.

He stood, feeling that he could not wait now; he was destined to break these bonds and rise. He stepped to the edge of the stone tower, felt the world beneath him looming toward the horizon and raised his face to feel the sunlight on it. “Think happy thoughts” he said to himself and heard the absurdity in the reference. 

And then, the balloon of sorrow popping within him, John stepped into nothingness.


A woman screamed. High above the city, a strange object appeared. It looked for all the world like three red and white-striped parachutes attached to a large throne. The whole thing slid along in the wind toward the center of town and on the ground, people from all over gazed up and ran to follow the object.


As he floated down, he could see the town rising to meet him. His body filled with the longing to land peacefully, and to free himself from the entanglements that held him back from the world. Two strange stone towers, huge and oddly thrusting up from the middle of the town, rose to meet him.

As he floated down, he was startled to see a man going the other direction. Instinct and long training moved his eyes to look for that man’s chutes, but there were none. The man just rose up. 

The pilot was filled with a sudden and nauseous disorientation. Maybe the chutes were carrying him upward and he was upside down. No, that wasn’t it. He was moving down. He reached for the radio that wasn’t there to alert the tower of this anomaly. His shaded eyes gazed in wonder at the man as he seemed to float up and away out of his vision. 

He was still trying to piece it together when the seat thunked down hard in an empty parking lot.


A woman gasped.

He knew that sound. It was a sound of joy. Of hope. Of reunion.

John reached out and pulled Georgie to him and they turned toward the lowering sun.


Wednesday, October 14, 2026

Oh, Avatar



These will be my last words. Here I am, in front of my computer, typing the final thoughts I will ever have, almost as if they’re written in my own blood. When I’m done with this, I’ll die. I’m not alone. The one here with me has made me promise to write clearly what led to this, so it can be a warning to anyone who might read it. If you read this and believe it, then maybe it can still help you. If you don’t, there’s nothing I can do about that. I only ask that you put your disbelief aside long enough to hear me out. Everything I’m telling you is true. And the one waiting for me to finish seems to know what I’m saying even as I type it.


I won’t give you my name. Being anonymous is a rare luxury now. Once, I would have proudly attached my name to any story about my life, or anything my elders had passed down to me. I wanted credit for every joke, every clever remark. Like so many people, I spent years expressing myself on social media. Looking back, much of it was petty, and none of it makes me look good. I wrote in anger. I mocked people for their religious or political beliefs, or for being stupid enough to fall for the lies of people I despised. What other explanation could there be?


I could have used that time better. I might have done some good if I’d tried to be encouraging or positive. But that wasn’t what the algorithms rewarded. I could post a picture of a flower or a cloud and get nothing. Then I’d tear into someone I couldn’t stand and get exactly what I wanted: people agreeing with me, and people I hated firing back. I enjoyed both. How much of my life did I spend typing anger into a phone or tablet? How much of it helped anyone? How much will anyone remember? How much of it lived up to the man I thought I was?


I felt helpless. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew why. I spent so much time scrolling through bad jokes, upsetting videos, and other people’s thoughts that I barely had room for my own. So why did I think adding my thoughts to the pile would change anything? Why did I keep shouting into it? Outside, the real world was being taken apart and sold to the highest bidder. By the time I looked up, there wasn’t much left.


That was when the one here with me arrived. He hasn’t left. We’ve talked a lot about what happened, and I understand it better now. I also understand what that conversation is going to cost me.


When I first joined social media, I thought it was a wonderful way to find people I hadn’t seen in years. It made me happy. I felt part of something bigger, a conversation that was always going on. I renewed old friendships, found people we both knew, and wondered where all the years had gone. I spent too much time filling out my online life with pictures, tagging people, tagging places. Some days, keeping up with everyone’s posts was almost all I did. By the end of that first year, so much of me was online that I didn’t notice the split.


I noticed later, when real life started to seem dull. How could my relationships outside the platforms compete with what I found there? The women were beautiful and openly sexual. The friendships seemed closer, somehow deeper. The food, the places, the stories all felt more real than anything I could see around me, even though they were just images on a flat screen. People’s lives seemed fuller and easier to understand. They seemed to have more going for them. How could my wife compare with those women? How could our food compare with those meals? 


Some of those people I knew personally. I knew their claims were as ridiculous as mine. But I still wanted to believe them. And I wanted people to believe me, so I started making my own posts sound better than the life behind them.


I posted across half a dozen platforms. The more I posted, the more people I met, and the more I saw of the people they knew. You might think that seeing so many different lives would have opened my mind. Instead, it made me feel further away from everyone. I became less tolerant of other views. I judged people for what they believed, often right where they could see it. I built a personality around a picture of myself that didn’t really look like me. The person attached to that picture didn’t seem much like me either.


But the illusion became so convincing that I started thinking of myself as the avatar. I gave him qualities I didn’t have because my own life felt smaller every day. The more time I spent online, the more jealous I became. Handsome men with full heads of hair, married to beautiful, lively women. Both of them are in perfect shape. Incredible houses, incredible cars, and apparently none of my problems. My wife and I never looked like that. Never would.


Seeing them made my own problems harder to ignore. So I lied more. I posted things that weren’t remotely true, hoping no one would see what was happening to me.


I was being hollowed out.


It wasn’t just how people looked or what they owned. I thought I had the right to judge anyone online who disagreed with me. But attacking their beliefs didn’t make mine stronger. It made me afraid that my own beliefs were just as easy to see through.


I picked so many fights. Not thoughtful discussions. Not civil debates. Name-calling. When someone did it to me, I took it badly, then turned around and did it to someone else. There was no room for compromise. Agreeing with someone who had already made up their mind got me nowhere. Fighting with them got me nowhere too.


After a while, my body reacted to words as if they could kill me. I couldn’t turn the anxiety off. On some platforms, everything depended on how many followers you had. I could comment on someone’s post, but that didn’t mean they would read it or care. Being ignored made me even angrier. I lost my temper more often.


The more I changed myself to fit my online personality, the more the people I also knew in real life pulled away. They became careful around me. I couldn’t understand it. If we were friends, then as far as I was concerned, we were close friends. I knew them. I trusted them. I loved them.


They didn’t feel the same way.


That should have told me how much I was changing. It was also when mitosis started—the splitting of one self into two. If only I’d understood how dangerous it was.


This went on for years. The platforms pulled me in, fed me nonsense, and gave me carefully packaged bits of nothing to believe in. The more I accepted online, the more I changed outside it.


But listen to how I say that. The platforms pulled me in. They fed me. They changed me.


That’s only part of the truth. I might as well say a venomous snake exists just so it can bite me when I disturb it. I went to those platforms willingly. As they changed, I went along with them. The people who built them were responsible, but so was I.


Maybe I wouldn’t have been hurt if I’d never used them. Or, as I preferred to think of it, if no one had introduced me to them. They were presented as harmless. A way to connect. A way to see more of the world than I could ever see on my own.


And they found a way around the part of my mind that should have known the difference. I wasn’t experiencing friendship, not beyond something like having a pen pal. I wasn’t visiting those places or sharing those people’s lives. I was looking at pictures. I could have done that with television, movies, or books.


But it felt real.


If someone bullied me online, it felt as real as being bullied in a grocery store parking lot or back in school. My body didn’t know the difference. If people liked what I said, supported me, or took my side, it felt like the whole world stood behind me.


The illusion became stronger than the life it was supposed to reflect. The real world couldn’t compete. Going through an ordinary day, I felt as if there wasn’t enough of anything. Not enough feeling. Not enough life.


I’d been married my whole adult life, but when I went on a date with my wife to ‘rekindle’ our romance, I felt thin, almost transparent. Less real than the person I was online. Before long, I couldn’t get through those parts of our life together without checking my phone. Each visit lasted longer than the one before it. Life was dull. I wanted to be online. She couldn’t be those women. She knew it and I knew it. We moved more and more apart and I moved more and more into my online life.


That was when the splitting really took hold. I couldn’t live without the avatar I had created anymore. I started to see myself as him, as if every story I posted and every thought I shared came honestly and directly from me. I was too worried about appearances. I was no longer living with my spouse, just sharing a house, but the illusion online seemed like we were never happier. It was all lies.


As the real world fell apart, I began to believe its supposed protections hadn’t been taken away. They had never really existed. I cared less and less about actual people. I sent money to online causes for strangers I would never meet, but gave nothing useful to neighbors who had suffered terrible losses. I became “politically active” without having any real politics. What I called my beliefs was a collection of scraps stuck together from the endless stream coming through my screen.


It seemed unfiltered. That was what made it so convincing. I thought I had unlimited access to a bigger, more real world. But everything woven into the platforms I wanted so badly to belong to was filtering what I saw, pushing me in a particular direction.


The same thing was happening to the people around me. One day, someone would seem normal, posting their bright, colorful life. Next, they were promoting beliefs that didn’t seem to fit anything else about them. They looked like the same person, but now they believed something extreme.


Some of that extremism came from the way the algorithms had shaped them. Some came from the way those same algorithms had shaped me. We started defining ourselves against whatever we thought was false, or whatever we thought had no right to exist.


It made me so angry I could barely think. I couldn’t understand how so many people had gone crazy. I couldn’t see what had happened to my own beliefs. Between those two positions, an abyss opened, and I couldn’t pull myself away from it.


Sometimes I thought I could see clearly. I would realize I’d lost myself. Between fights over ideas I claimed not to believe in—ideas I told myself I was only playing with, because I was too clever to fall for any ideology—I could see that whatever had once kept me steady was gone.


If I’d been a Christian before, I wasn’t one now. If I’d been an atheist, I was now the most devoted Christian you could find.


My family, my friends, my coworkers all drifted away. I blamed them. When they tried to tell me they were losing someone they loved, all I heard was noise. They might as well have been animals howling somewhere far away.


I hadn’t changed. They had.


Underneath that was the certainty that none of them mattered anyway. The whole world was circling a drain. Freedom was disappearing. Strange groups with no coherent beliefs were gaining power. People had given up on reason.


I shook my head at everyone who spent their waking hours staring into a device, trapped inside a little rectangle full of lies.


And there I was, doing exactly the same thing.


Sometimes, with what little irony I had left, I wondered whether anyone looked at me that way.


By then, the split was almost complete.


Late one night, a police officer pulled me over. He said he knew I’d been on my phone because he could see the blue light on my face as I swerved through the streets.


When I got home, I put the ticket on the counter. Then I noticed someone standing in the kitchen, their outline dark against the room behind them.


At first, I thought it was my wife. But she had left me long before, lost in her own online world. She had also grown bitter because I hadn’t given her the life she thought she deserved—the life she kept seeing on the platforms.


The figure moved in a way I recognized. For a moment, despite how large they were, I thought it was my daughter.


Then I thought it wasn’t anyone I knew.


But I did know him.


He stepped into the light, and I knew exactly who he was.


I wondered if this was how God had felt when he first looked at Adam. Or how Victor Frankenstein had felt when he looked at his own Adam.


I felt sick. Then I felt afraid, so deeply and suddenly that everything else stopped.


The world, in the state it was in, shouldn’t have been able to make something like him. So where had he come from? Had the people who owned the platforms decided to take over God’s work?


He won’t tell me. I don’t blame him.


It doesn’t matter whether someone assembled him in a lab from manufactured tissue and fluids. I’m the one who made him. I put every part of him together with words I believed, even when I knew they weren’t true.


“You can go,” he said. “I’m here now.”


“I don’t want to go anywhere,” I said.


Even to me, it sounded weak. I wasn’t sure I meant it. How could I know? I’d used him to carry my version of the truth for so long that I couldn’t tell what was real anymore.


“You’re no longer needed,” he said. “I’ll finish out your life.”


I argued with him for a long time. It did no good. He knew every approach I would try. Every time I thought I’d found a way through, he stepped around it.


I screamed until my throat bled. I cried until no more tears came. I threatened to destroy myself, as if he would die without me.


Through all of it, he waited for me to accept the thing I already knew.


I was no longer needed.


When my wife came out of her room and saw him, she went straight to him. There was something hungry in the way she moved. She hadn’t moved toward me like that in years.


He gave her a piece of jewelry. Something cheap, probably made in a sweatshop somewhere. She loved it. She put it on, then looked at me as if the Devil himself had come up through the floor to take her.


They went into my bedroom together. He closed the door.


It should have destroyed me. Instead, I felt nothing.


I reached for my device and went back to the platforms. That was how I dealt with the loss. Then a picture of them appeared in my feed.


She was wearing next to nothing, posed in a way she had never posed for me. She had the new jewelry on. She looked alive, full of color, more real than she had in years.


Beside her, he smiled at me with complete confidence.


Their eyes seemed to reach all the way inside my head.


I went upstairs to my office. There was a cot there. I’d been sleeping on it for a long time. I lay down.


When he came in, he acted as if the house belonged to him. He didn’t ask. He didn’t wait for an invitation. This wasn’t some creature bound by ancient rules about permission.


He wasn’t someone else.


He was me.


“We’ve been together a long time,” he said.


I could smell my wife on him.


“You’ve been putting me together for as long as you’ve been staring at that screen. Every post. Every status update. Every time you interact with someone else’s online life, I become more solid.”


His calm unsettled me. He spoke as if he were explaining something ordinary.


Had I ever been like that? Was any part of me still mine?


“No,” he said.


His mouth didn’t move.


This time, the answer came from inside my head, in the voice I used when I talked to myself. It came as easily as any thought I’d ever had.


Here was the man I’d made out of myself.


And I wasn’t him.


“She’s still an amazing lover,” he said. “Why did you neglect her? Why did you let her neglect you?”


I started to answer.


“There are always excuses,” he said. “You won’t say anything I haven’t already thought of. Why would you? How could you? I’m you. Every part of you. Every muscle. Every tendon.


“Here I am. The man you loved into existence. You built me from the cells up.


“I have everything you deny yourself. Your hair’s getting thin. Mine isn’t. You’re going gray. My hair’s the color it was when we were young. You’re out of shape. Look at your stomach. I’m in the best shape of our lives.


“I don’t have to run. I don’t have to work out or watch what I eat. Your lies took care of that.


“You wanted people to accept you so badly that you made a better version of yourself to deal with them. That way, you could keep everything you hated about yourself out of sight.


“You think those people care so much about our life. You think they’re watching every day unfold like a reality show. They aren’t. They do just enough to keep you involved, because they think you’re watching their lives the same way.


“That’s the best part. None of you can see it.


“It’s okay. I have plenty of siblings and cousins. They’ll be replacing those people too.”


Then he handed me a notebook and a pen.


I’ve written everything down as well as I can. But even now, I can feel the truth draining out of me.


The truth, and whatever makes me real.


This is all that’s left.


An empty shell.


All for the illusion of connection and a...


...life that has always been a lie.